5 Days!!! Why

On yesterday the unthinkable happened. While on their way to church my baby sister and my niece were in an accident. My niece's mom called me hysterical because she had already arrived at church and was waiting on them. We had just gotten off the phone. My niece had to be airlifted to the hospital. My baby sister sustained some injuries and is recovering well. My niece is in critical condition and is fighting. She's progressing well. Tears fall occasionally because they are both blessed to be alive. Things could have been much worse and I'm forever grateful. But I have to ask why? Why now? Why ever? Those are my babies. I remember when both were born and brought home from the hospital. I was so happy when my step mom told us she was preggers with my baby sis. My other sibling were upset but that was because they were some spoiled brats lol. Just kidding. My niece made me a Tee Tee for the first time. She was my little poosha pie. I never try to question God's will but man. This is tough. I know that God will never put more on me than I can bare but Lord this is a bit much. I don't know why but I have to accept it. I feel guilty about the wedding now. I'm not as excited about it anymore. I know my family wants me to move forward but it's still difficult. One thing I can say that it further shows me how much I love and appreciate boo love. He has been my rock throughout all of this. He hasn't left my side since it all happened and I'm forever grateful. I am also blessed with some of the best friends EVER! You guys have been amazing. I thank each and every one of you for your phone calls, prayers, text messages, your offerings of  assistance, etc. I can't say thank you enough. We serve an awesome God and it's amazing the people he places in your path to help during difficult times. Despite it all I still praise God for sparing their life. I praise him for the continued progress in their prognosis. I praise God for all that He's done for our family during this time. He just continues to show up and show out. It's my prayer that God gets the glory in all of this. I know my God is able! Continue to keep us in your prayers and start praising him right now for all that he has done, is doing, and will do. Amen, Amen, and AMEN!


Doc J

7 Days!!! 10 Reasons

Hey gang! 7 Days!!!! YEEEAAAHHHH!! *in my T. I. voice* Dress is steamed and pressed and ready to go. All times are set and yada yada. I can't wait! Anywho...I started writing this last week and since I'm up watching the Alabama vs TX A&M game (I should be sleep by the way) I decided to go ahead and finish it.Today is all about my boo love. *stares out window* Oh how I love he let me count the ways....*twirls in glitta* Here are 10 reasons why I love boo love in no particular order.

1. He can cook! *High fives Jesus*
When I say home skillet can cook...home skillet can cook y'all. He makes the best blueberry pancakes and biscuits. LAWD. I can't really think of anything he's made that wasn't good. He puts his big toe in everything he cooks. Amen, Amen, and Amen again!

2. We can talk about anything.
I love our conversations. We talk about everything from sports to religion to politics, etc. Sometimes we talk all night till sunrise. We've never argued. We have our disagreements but we talk them through and all is well again. Our conversations are the absolute best!

3. He's my best friend!
I can honestly say that he is my best friend. We do everything together. He fits in well with my friends and their husbands. We're one big happy family. We laugh and joke on each other like the best of friends. He's my travel partner. He's just an amazing friend.

4. Tall, dark, handsome, bow-legged and nice booty! *High fives and daps Jesus*
Whenever I see him, he makes my heart skip a beat. His smile brightens my bad days. God really showed out when he made that sexy man. Yes Lawd! I always tease him about his walk. And yes I stare at his booty lol. I'm such a perv but I can't help but to admire that handsome man!

5. He supports me!
Any goal or aspiration I have, he rises to to the occasion. He's my biggest cheerleader. He's been the key motivator in my weight loss. He helps me with achieving my goals and I am forever grateful.

6. An amazing listener!
As a woman, sometimes I don't want an answer to my problem. I just want to talk it out and get things off my chest. He just listens and comforts me when necessary. He pays attention to my needs and desires and reacts accordingly. He listens even when I'm not saying anything.

7. God Fearing!
I love that he puts God first in his life. It comforts me in knowing that a man of God will be leading our household.

8. He's my personal trainer!
When I shared my weight loss struggles with him, he started working out with me. I told him how I want to build muscle and strengthen my weak areas and he developed workouts just for that for me. Yes, he's tough on me while we work out but I know it's out of love. He developed this interval training circuit for me so tough that I wanted to punch him for it lol. He also changed the way he cooks to be clean and healthy. I love he for that.

9. Did I mention he can cook! *High fives Jesus again and sings a hymn*
Just had to mention that again lol. *rocks back and forth and waves hand*

10. He adores me!!
The way he looks at me makes me blush. He gives the best hugs and kisses. When I fall asleep in his arms, he whispers in my ear that I look like an angel. He tells me everyday how beautiful I am to him. He always finds a way to make me blush. He thinks I'm the best thing since slice bread and it's refreshing.


Y'all I love that man. I can wait to his mulatto babies. I can't wait to travel the world with him. I can't wait walk together in life as husband and wife. To my boo love, Jeffery Parker II I love you. I'm so thankful for you and couldn't imagine a more perfect mate for me. I can't wait to see your smile when I walk down the aisle to become your wife. It's my prayer that we never stop loving each other, to always put God first, never stop dating one another and to always remember why we fell with one another. I love you and 7 more days babaaaayyyy!!!


Too excited,

Doc J

12 Days!!! Emotions

I can't believe that next week I will be marrying my boo love. It became real when coordinator and ceremony/reception site wanted to meet to finalize plans. I can't believe 6 months have gone by so fast. These past few days have been a little hectic trying to get last minute things taken care of. We both see the light at the end of the tunnel. *sings praises* Am I nervous? Not at all. I'm ready for it all to be over and live life as husband and wife. Now if I can just get a free maid to come clean my house, that would be so clutch right now. Plus when it rains it pours. My check engine light came on and of course it cost me an arm, a leg and 2 fingers to get it fixed. Sigh.... Anyhow, what are these emotions that you are feeling right now? Let me explain.....

One I am more than ever wishing my mom was here with me. Don't get me wrong my step mother and family have been amazing during this time but I really wish my mom was here to help me sort through some of the craziness that has been going on. To have her hold me and rock me would be so amazing right now. I know I'm 30 but being rocked and held by your mother never gets old. Shoot I still sit in my dad's lap until he starts joking about his leg falling asleep. -_- I really hope that she is proud.

I'm also a little emotional about where I've come and where I am. I'm not where I want to be but the love that I have with my soon to be husband is amazing. This time I waited on the Lord and LOOK. AT. GOD! Lol. I've still been healing from past experiences but he makes it so easy and I love him to pieces for it. I guess that's my reasoning for not being nervous. I think I'm more anxious than anything. I can't wait to see family and friends at the ceremony. I can't wait to see what he looks like in his tux. And y'all he looks Lawd have mercy good in a suit. *high fives Jesus* I can't wait to have my dad walk me down the aisle. You know all the mushy stuff.

I haven't been a bridezilla or anything. Yes some people have thoroughly gotten on my nerves but I'm praying on that. So what do I have planned for the next few days you ask? Most of the wedding plans are done. I have a few small odds and ends to complete but for the most part it is finished. Now I'm just trying to remain calm and stop this sinus infection from happening. *waves fist at Mississippi weather* Sidebar: Dancing Machine just came on my Spotify and I have to stop to pop and lock it! *proceeds to doing the robot* Ok I'm back lol. Well off to prepare for my meeting with the people!

Lata!

Doc J

19 Days!! My Ideal Body

It's almost time guys! I'm getting excited! Woot Woot! On yesterday, I spent time with my crazy family from Michigan. It just sucked I had to work but was elated that I got a chance to spend a few minutes with them. Anywho, everyone has an idea of their perfect body, chiseled arms, sculpted back, lean thighs, ignant donk...ya know. So if I could sculpt the perfect body, here is what it would look like....


1. Michelle Obama's arms
Y'all....her arms are amazing. I love the first lady anyway because of her poise and class. I know being first lady has to be such a challenge but she deals with it with such grace. I really need get on her upper body regime because her arms are just....yes I LIVE! With all the stress she endures, I would probably be eating all kinds of unhealthy foolery so I applaud her for staying healthy and in shape. Her arms are my goal!

2. Janet Jackson's abs
As someone who has struggled with self esteem and weight issues herself, Janet has always seemed to bounce back. Her abs are just amaze balls! Janet was my idol growing up. I wanted to be her so bad. I had the rhythm nation outfit and errythang. I even attempted to make the key earring but that was a fail. I used to have abs back in the day. *stares off into memory lane* I too one day soon shall have abs like you Janet. I'm coming for you *evil laugh just kidding* :)

3. Tina Turner's legs
This woman is what 73 and she still look amazing. I don't know if she is drinking unicorn tears or what but I need some asapedly.  You know your legs have to be amazing if you got insurance on them. Tina I salute you!


4. Serena Williams gluteus maximus
I really don't have to say much here....like I wouldn't mind having her whole body. One day....one day....


Last but not least, as I age, I only hope that I age as gracefully as Myrlie Evers. Did you guys see her at the inauguration? When I googled her age my jaw dropped. Yes people she is 80 years old. She looks amazing. Not only that she looks to be in good health.


I have struggled with my weight and self image for most of my life. But this year, I committed myself to changing that. I stopped making excuses and started setting goals. I've met many of those goals and I'm still striving to go harder and become stronger. My goal is to not be on any medications when I get older and to be in great health. I also want to be an inspiration to others to not give up and to put their health as a priority. Welp, time for me to go workout now. Who are your body idols? By 2014 I will be in the best shape in my life!

Until tomorrow.....

On the road to sexy,

Doc J