Yesterday marked 6 months until I turn 30. At first I was super excited. Yay! I'm almost 30. Then it hit me. I'm about to turn 30! Yikes! It is a blessing and truly by God's grace that I've made it thus far. In these almost 30 years of living, God has blessed me with so much that I couldn't imagine that I would have accomplished the things that I would've accomplished at this point. I'm not where I though I would be but I'm obviously where God wants me to be. But can I be a little vulnerable for a moment. A few days ago, after working out, I got into the shower. I started thing about my birthday celebration in Jamaica and became overwhelmed with tears. Don't get me wrong, I am SUPER DUPER excited. But these tears came from a deep space in which I think I've been trying to cover up with smiles for years now. As many may or may not know, my mom passed away when I was 4. Her birthday is a day before mine. I don't think I've cried this hard about my mom since I was 8 years old. I started to think how I wish she could be here and go to Jamaica with me and she fuss about how she was hoping I would be born on her birthday but I decided to wait until 4:54 the next morning. I wish we could laugh and joke about the joys and pains of life whilst sitting on the beach getting sweet tea wasted lol. I guess at that moment I realized how much I missed my mom. Although I was only 4, I have many fond memories of her. She was an awesome woman that left here too soon. I really hope that she's proud of me, my sister, and brother. Till we meet again, I love you Mom and miss you more than you ever know.
Doc J
